the stress part is.. if i take the offer... i have to worry again if they still wan me after 4 mths... haiz... now hurting for job liao lo... just got a call from my agent saying to me sincere wan me to go back to interview as i told her i wan the job again... lets pray hard they wan me n hope their pay there is good...

haiz... as times goes by... we adults have to worry alot about our future... now hoping the pay is good and i can save the money for my wedding, my car and my house....

had being working for gucci for almost 2 mths le... currently pending to convert into full time... but today... heard i will be converted into perm part time only.. so wats the different between part time, perm part time n full time ?

part time you earn by per hour n only incentive while perm part timer you are given a basic and commission same as a full timer... just tat you don't have any leave or any benefit like full timer (etc; stuff purchase). once i heard these news, i was like sian lo... cos i was planning to go Taiwan during the may mth... but seems like need to do some changes ba...

well... time really flies, now its aready 2010 liao... miss those times when i was in school... now have to work hard for my future le... and means to say more stress... and just now made my baby unhappy cos till now i'm unable to say things she wants to hear like how much i miss her... i don't know y i can't but this is not me lo... sorry baby... didn't mean to make you unhappy... I'm trying to but just can't... i don't know y... wanted to tell you how much i miss you but words just can't come out from my stupid mouth... really do miss you alot when i can't meet up with you...

as for my friends, being getting really close with clement and leon... somehow, i feel they understand me as a brother and a best friend... being having some problems with desmond and the rest of them...

lots of things to plan now... thinking about my work... whether how long do i have to wait to convert as i'm afraid of being jobless.... planning for my marriage cos my baby parents wants to have a wedding dinner.... need to save up for our flat..... haiz... stress...

for now... being thinking of getting a red plate car... cos can drive at nite and if wanna meet with friends or baby at nite to wander around or supper... don't have to grab a cab lo... buying a car is easy... but maintaining it is hard... currently if i get a red plate car... monthly will cost me from 200 to 300... oil baby will settle or if we go out as a group all of us will share... but problem is... worth it ma ?

Haiz...

Its being a very stress week... partly olso because of family, as their work is not very good at this point of time... felt so unless tat i can't help anything but only can pray tat my interview on this wed as a surveillance operation will be successful. at the mean while, si wei n lester suddenly got back to me again... out of no where we are so close as usual... which i can see baby not comfortable as some time i will be going back late with them or i might get hurt again... well baby just let them be ba... i will be aware of them de.. i'm glad tat u still let me go out with them late lo... no like last time when we had to quarrel because of going out late... well i will try not to go out with them too late offen k...

its going to be a week since i leave the company... currently hunting for job n olso at the same time waiting for chan's brother manager to call me as one of my friend candi know the person... so just have to wait lo... going to have my sup exam really soon... whats my plan now is... i'm going to finish my exam... get a part time work n once got the money i will go for the security course than i will work for 2 part time... see how things goes first before i can make my move lo... cos not young anymore.. need to plan for the future le.... haiz.... just worry about wat is it ilike in the future for me....